questions?

I am really not sure what to do

my life  is in the air

I cannot despair

I just need to know who

I really am

what I stand for

and what I will not

I am beginning to

just how I've lost me

along the way

 

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Sista Starbird

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shedding

fear is not just the mind killer

more importantly it is the soul killer

some dragons are not easily slayed

I will not be swayed

I will find my way

perserverence furthers

an indisputable fact

life is an ever evolving growing thing

not something you ledger out

in neat files of selfishnes

as I persevere I pray

to the creator

with the understand

that I am part of the whole

thus obligated to be good

isn't goodnes GOD

so I shed my skin once again

dive in th deep end to swim

in life

it is what it is

 

 

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over

those venomous words still ring in my ears
I'm am not angry, I did what I had to do
your not speaking your heart to me was part of the problem
you might have tried expressing your appreciation while you had me
I gave up many things to get away from you
I do not have an address I am for all intesive purposes homeless
no comment
I wish I could believe your words
yeah me to
as for the rest
does it matter if I can't believe you?
not so much about forgiveness
as self preservation
I was dying with you and you did not see it
I had to leave

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Untitled

 

I will not give myself away
I will not trust until you show me trustworthiness
I am done with the dance of romance
my toes are numb from being walked on
my back is broken from scrubbing your floor
my heart is broken for letting so much slide
I hope I have finally developed an allergy to bullshit after such intense exposure
I am on hiatus for an extended period of time

 

"but lets just say that I've learned a lot about setting boundaries and enforcing them. I felt very taken advantage of in the second break up this year and I'll never let that happen again. My kindness and charity was repaid with betrayal and lies.": Kindness and charity? how so, your life a shit storm when I met you you dumb ass arrogant jerk! You know damn wel lif there is any soul in you at all I never ever lied or was a fucking charity case. Boundaries, yeah maybe you should keep you dick in your pants and your ego on hold. creep!
MY GOD YOUR SO FULL OF YOURSELF

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the next step

I can't even feel any more

just pain wracking my brain

constant push to keep me sane

losin my grip losing ground

left me flat face down

prayin hard and dreamin

tryin to see the next step

 

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The Deleterious Effects of Child Abuse

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simplify

sparks igniting lightening

en lightening

in light

free flight

the great beyond tomorrow awaits

simplify to fly

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Change

By inresidence at 2009-03-10

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